From Eat. Pray. Love.
"A friend took me to the most amazing place the other day. It's called the Augusteum. Octavian Augustus built it to house his remains. When the barbarians came they trashed it a long with everything else. The great Augustus, Rome's first true great emperor. How could he have imagined that Rome, the whole world as far as he was concerned, would be in ruins. It's one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won't let go of because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we're afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured - the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn't been so chaotic, it's just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation."
I have experienced pain in my life. More than I would ever wish on anyone. And yet less than many others have felt. I have known great sorrow. I have lost someone I loved.
I am so often afraid that I will be alone in the world. I try to maintain the status quo and subsequently reduce myself to less. To maintain the status quo you have to give up desires and standards. It is the only way. I just don't want to do that anymore. I will gladly go through more pain and suffering to find passion at the end of the tunnel. My life has crumbled to ruins before and I have built it back up, differently each time. Better.
“Our happiness or our unhappiness depends far more on the way we meet the events of life than on the nature of these events themselves.”
So I challenge you world. fate. Throw what you have at me. I will only build bigger. I will only love more. I will only discover greater happiness. I can survive. I can thrive.
Die. Rise. Fly. I will never be who I was. I can only be who I am. And I will grow into the woman I want to become.
I have experienced pain in my life. More than I would ever wish on anyone. And yet less than many others have felt. I have known great sorrow. I have lost someone I loved.
I am so often afraid that I will be alone in the world. I try to maintain the status quo and subsequently reduce myself to less. To maintain the status quo you have to give up desires and standards. It is the only way. I just don't want to do that anymore. I will gladly go through more pain and suffering to find passion at the end of the tunnel. My life has crumbled to ruins before and I have built it back up, differently each time. Better.
“Our happiness or our unhappiness depends far more on the way we meet the events of life than on the nature of these events themselves.”
| — | Wilhelm von Humboldt |
So I challenge you world. fate. Throw what you have at me. I will only build bigger. I will only love more. I will only discover greater happiness. I can survive. I can thrive.
Die. Rise. Fly. I will never be who I was. I can only be who I am. And I will grow into the woman I want to become.
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